The Lord has been working. In our society, in our individual little worlds, in every aspect of life; His hand has been stirring things up.
For a few weeks now, I have mentioned God calling me to redefinition and complete surrender.
I believe there is a moment in which you have to make the decision to take the next step. If I am honest, I often hate taking the next step because it means that something is being sacrificed. It is scary when you don’t know what you are stepping into.
However, I have learned time and time again that it is worth. every. minute. God is such a good father, and He will not see His kids shamed. He wants what is best for us.
In my pursuit of surrender, I have had a couple late nights, sitting in bed crying. Not out of fear, not out of anger, but rather, having a good “letting go” cry. Surrender is hard. We in Christian circles like to make it seem easy and serene. If we just surrender, we will be happy, right?
Sometimes surrender isn’t pretty. It isn’t nice. It’s letting yourself stay open for the Lord to rearrange things inside you. Yet even in the midst of the sorting, He is still gracious and kind. He stays close in the midst of wondering. He is close while you cry over what you wanted to happen. I don’t know how God works, but I do know that He is never going to abandon me.
He has been asking me to do some hard stuff as of late. I feel like right now I am being redefined. I am being asked to let go of a few things to make room for what comes next.
Then He asked me to take a six month hiatus from my blog.
I really wrestled with this one. However, after mulling it over, I realized that the Lord was going to be doing something wonderful. I feel like it is time to move on for now. I cannot wait to see what He does in this time.
This next step is scary, but I believe something miraculous is going to come out of this.
Goodbye isn’t goodbye forever. I will be around in January. And, oh, I can’t wait to share all of the wonderful things the Lord has done since our goodbye. To quote Winnie the Pooh, “How lucky I am to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard.”
May the Lord bless you and keep you.
May the Lord make His face to shine upon you.
May the Lord lift His countenance upon you and give you peace.
love you all!!