I am aware that this is being posted later than normal, but that is simply because I completely forgot that it was Tuesday until 12:32pm today. It has become that part of quarantine. I am sorry. XD This will be shorter because I don’t have as much brain power today, so I’m sorry, friends.
We have reached the last week of school (praise the Lord!) and it is starting to look up around here. I have a couple more tests before the end, and I have to turn in my portfolio (yikes guys), but after that, I’m done! I have officially started to consider myself a senior because it makes me feel better about the work I’ve done the past year. 🙂
Even so, there are necessary hurdles I have to jump over to reach the finish line. My school is already sending me emails about senior stuff I have to turn in before school ends this year (which is stressin me out big time), and because I do dual enrollment, I have to sign up for testing again and then register for classes for the fall. It’s a lot to deal with currently.
However, in the midst of all of this, I know that these hoops that I have to jump through are important and that I will make it. My mom has been really encouraging through all of this, reminding me to just take it one step at a time.
Same goes for you, dear readers. Sometimes it takes a mountain of annoying work and your blood, sweat, and tears to press into who you have been destined to be. Finding peace in the midst of the mental storm is key. Jesus has been so full of grace this past week and a half, and that has really made the difference for me.
A song that has been on repeat has been Sails by Pat Barrett, Steffany Gretzinger, and Amanda Cook (link below). It has reminded me again and again to let go. I am easily stuck in my own head, letting my problems worries build up like not allowing a breath out.
As I sit here writing this, I am reminded of how much the Lord has done for me in the past year. I turn seventeen tomorrow and wow, I never thought that would happen. 😉 He has been so gracious to me, and it is hard to imagine life without Him. The very breath in my lungs is His, so I have to praise Him.
So, right here, in the middle of hurdles and hoops that I often feel like I don’t want to jump through because it hurts just to pick my legs up off the ground, He is gracious and He carries me.
I don’t need to worry because He is good. I am safe, I am secure, I am holy in His eyes. There is nowhere I could go apart from Him. I let out the sails of my heart.
this is just the beginning.
love you all!