summer, my pals // a lot of words to basically say that I can’t wait

Hey y’all!

The last quarter of the school year is zooming at light-speed right now and I’m barely holding on, guys.

*screams at the sky/ceiling/wall/whatever is convenient and available*

Since we last talked, I played keys on Wednesday, stayed home from school to sleep and take care of myself, took an ACT (pterodactyl screech), practiced for student worship night, and now have somehow managed to make myself sick.

I am not sick enough to stay home (and by golly I am not going to, I would miss so much at school), but I am sick enough for it to bug me. Oh well. Probably lack of taking care of my body. Whoops.

Needless to say, it’s one heck of a ride, y’all.

It’s really funny because I’m in this place where it feels like the teacups at Disney, you’re sitting still and you can feel the wind blow through your hair and all that, you can see the colors and blur of the people around you, but you are still.

(That is literally the best example, me, good job.)

I’m turning sixteen in less than a month, I have less than fifteen class days left, I have numerous papers and tests and reports and all of that, prom is fast approaching (which is a whole thing in itself)….

It’s just a lot. And I’m kinda like

But you know what, I have the beautiful, glimmering promise of summer up ahead. It’s so stinking close and I’m dying. I can’t wait, guys.

The humorous thing about it all is the fact that I can’t wait, but in the same time, I really can.

There will be so much change over the summer. I can feel it.

No, I’m not necessarily talking like moving (unless the Lord says so, but I really, really, really hope He doesn’t…).

There is just a feeling of both anticipation and excitement. I mean, it’s summer so duh, there is gonna be some level of excitement. But like something in the air is changing, and I have no idea what it is, even so, I’m so so excited.

(also sort of related, I am looking forward to summer because of free time. I’m going to get so much writing done. I’ve barely touched M.O.S. since November and I am ashamed of that XD.)

But like I was saying, I can’t wait but in the same breath, I can.

My best friend is going to college.

My good friend over here is entering his senior year of high school and AH.

I am going to be entering MY JUNIOR YEAR *dying noises*

But you know what?

Change is good; change is necessary. For growth to happen, we need the change. We never really like it in the moment, but believe me, it pays off and then you look back and you are like “OH!”

It’s so great.

We’re in the calm before the storm. We’re on the final push. We are on the wave, riding it until we hit the sand and the shore. We’re tired, but carrying on.

Kids in my area are counting down to the May 22nd-24th. But don’t waste your time worrying about how many days are left. Yes, count down the days. Yes, circle the day. Yes, doodle the number each day.

But don’t forget to live.

There will come a day when you miss this. Believe it or not, you are going to miss being around the crazy lovely weirdos at school. You are going to miss the low groan of your peers in first period as the sun rises.

So take pictures. Go to the prom with your buddies. Take care of yourself for the time being. Once you are done with tests and papers, there will be plenty of time for staying up till the morning, so for now, study and sleep early.

Summer is coming. Just hold on long enough to see it arrive.

(i slipped into that motivational life speech, but truth is I’m writing this at 1 on a school night aaaAAAAHH)

So in conclusion, there will be change, but I can’t wait for summer, y’all. It will be fabulous. I’m already making goals and lists of things I want to do and read and watch. I’m so excited.

(*crosses fingers* I also want to dive into the MCU this summer so hopefully you’ll hear more about that…)

As a parting gift, here is a “countdown to summer” playlist I made a few days ago.

Now go forth, mis amigos and amigas, and smile. Your day is just beginning. Make the best of it. Don’t procrastinate. Work hard. Make me proud. 🙂

Love you all,

Madeleine